Can't sleep again.....worried about my baby

The hardest thing I've ever had to do was leave my baby with a man I don't trust last night. I dropped her off exactly 6 pm. I called at 7:53 pm and they were in the middle of eating dinner? Her bed time is 8 pm. Then he continues to tell me that he was off to get her diapers. WTF? He knew for over a week that he would have her and he didn't buy diapers at any time before that?
I am documenting anything and everything I can get my hands on.

He had the audacity to come over and open the door to Kailee in the car before I had even gotten out of the car after parking. I'm sorry, but I would never do that, especially if I had been fighting with him for a week, like we had.

Next week I will be looking into a new lawyer and seeing if there is anything I can do about this parenting plan as he filed with the court down here before she had been living here in Pueblo for 6 months. A friend told me that you have to file where the child had been the previous 6 months, which would have technically been Jefferson County.

I've also been thinking about what I might have done in court had I had a clearer mind and time to realize that I was being victimized yet again. Now that I have been through a court proceeding, I am over being intimidated. My child is going to suffer because I was like a deer in headlights and I cannot live with that.

He is on forced sobriety because of his probation. He didn't choose to get sober. I was watching a program this morning on addiction. Its a disease and there is no cure, only the want and resolve to get clean and stay that way. Karl has no such desires. For this, as soon as he is done with his monitored sobriety, I'm almost positive he will go back to drinking and smoking weed. He refused to give it up on behalf of his newborn daughter, I doubt he will give it up because someone said he had too. I refuse to let my baby get hurt and be exposed to him at such a young age, until he gets the kind of attitude and help he needs to fight his addictions.

Its just everything all over again. He talks a big game, but when it comes to following through, he always fails. Why did it take 2 hours to feed her last night and why didn't he have diapers at the time he was given Kailee to be in his care? Right now I feel like a such a horrible mother for putting her in that situation! I WANT MY BABY BACK!